Friday, November 10, 2006
Hello, i am Melissa. Yes that is the sentence i say when i introduce myself to someone new who is just coming into my life and knowing me. Well, i aint really know who am i, it is not that i got this temporary memory lost or what. But i just dont understand my life. Why my life is being so tough, i know everyone has got there ups and downs in life but how everyone gone through it? I believe that some trust God and trust them selves as if they are there own god. In my life, i am currently lost and in a mess. I know i trust God but sometimes when something unluncky comes to me, i wont know what to do and start to think whose fault is that.
Well, i quarreled with almost everyone around me, i feel unhappy with everyone around me. Why i feel unhappy? Because there are a few kinds of character consist in ourselves, not only them and me but maybe also you the one who is reading my blog now, sometimes we are too self centered and want things to be our way only and never think of what and how others will feel. I think this is the main problem that makes us hate people around us and choose to leave them or what. Sometimes, that is the stubborness of the people around me makes me hate them, sometimes they just cannot listen to me as if that i am so young and things i said is going to be wrong and they are old enough to lecture me or something. Sometimes, i am just so mad that whenever i give my mom some advise on something she will never listen to me and do it her way and later the nasty thing happen or unhappy thing happen, not only that no one around me listen to my advice like sometimes when i know that things cannot be that way and no one listen to me. Well, this include my boyfriend who says that he love me. Whenever he makes me sad or down and i am angry and mad he would bow down to me and say sorry and knows that he has done something wrong and said that he would never do it again and promised to listen to me and bla bla bla but everything is just a broken promise making my heart more broken.
And the most nasty thing in this world is MONEY, it makes people laugh, cry, smile and make crime happens. Sometimes when i see people around me complain about money i also feel like helping them with a wrong way. I shouldnt tell how. But for money, some became robbers, thief, prostitute and bla bla bla. All those not so good job.
Well, sometimes someone's interest might pissed us off too. Right? Well, for my mom i dont wanna tell what is her interest that pissed me off. But for my boyfriend i wanna shout it outloud here. He never get enough sleep. I hate him sleeping like that. We quarreled about sleeping before. For him, it is like sleeping is the most important thing to do in this world. He used to say me that my world in Internet and PC but i think i dont really spent a lot of my time in my PC world. Honestly, i dont really know whether i am inside the PC world or anything. I am definately sure that i am not in the world of romantic because my boyfriend works so hard and make me feel so cold about him. If he is not working he is spending most of his time sleeping off. And it makes me think that sleeping is his world. Well, what is my world? I dont really love food. I dont really love cars. I dont really love cats and dogs. Well, i admit that other than all the things i do around me i spend most of my time here blogging or surfing around the net.
A friend of mine used to told me that she is gonna married after she has finish her A-level but her problem now is that she has not got her self a bride groom yet. *You know who you are, but i am just using it as my example. Dont be mad or anything. Well, maybe that is what she really wants in her life, to have a family and make her family happy and everything. For me now, i dont wanna think about having a family, because i think that very rarely a mother or a father will understand what her kids want. Most of the time, parents are pressuring their kids to do things their way not the kids way. Forcing their kids to be matured la. Bla bla bla.
Whenever i am cranky or anything, my boyfriend will always ask me to wake up and get out of my wonder land and tells me that this is a reality world that is cruel. Well, why he cannot makes me go pursue my dream? Well, I dont think that anyone will encourage me to do that as i hate almost everyone who is in my reality life. Here i officially announce that whoever is connected to all the people out there. I am now totally into my blogging world and i will only tell about my true feelings here and i hope to get more support from all those people in the net.
FEELING HURT NOW.
Signing Off.
I am venting. Hope all the readers dont mind.
with l0v3, The only tame shark
3:11 PM
