In form 4 i chose to be in the Technology class and not taking up chinese, so i am in the Malay class. Well, that makes me know quite a few Malay friends and get to go home earlier on Friday. At first i was like so crazy in class but after some break up with a class mate in the class i became quiet. Till today i still dont know how to describe the feelings i had for him when i was with him and after we broke up. Well, although the relationship was like come and go but it does hurt. Lol. I also dont understand why i am like that. That was the time i started to hate the noises in the class and only stays with my best friend and do craps. Well, that time i started to eat 'crab'(lol. not the real one, only one or two person understand what i am talking about here.) badly which means more than one per day, i did a lot of stupid things. At that time i felt thati had lost everything. Not only that i have problems with my relationship but i have got a lot of problems at home too. Now, when i think back i feel that i am so stupid to did all that wanna know what i do? I cut my self with anything sharp to make myself feel alive and happy. At that time my best friend got frightened, she was afraid that something even worst might happen to me and she told some other friend and they talked me out. Well, although now i dont talk to that friend anymore but still i wanna say Thank You to him. He didnt help me totally get out of it but i dnt cut that much too cause my best friend monitered me. Lol. Form 4 is the year that i was so into volley ball that i stayed back to play volley ball from 4 something till 8 or 9 something then go home. Ya, that's life that's the time i have fun. Lol. Almost everyday i got new bruises from the training cause we need to save our balls and we shall see the balls important than we are. Lol. I miss that kind of fun. You might think that i said that swimming means so much to me and now you ask, what about swimming. It all means the same to me cause i had put so much afford in all of it.

I only realize that my class is a fun class in form 5. Yes, form five. Lol. I think if i didnt hate my class before then i wont love it too. Lol. Well, that's the year that we gonna sit for exam but we were playing like mad. Everyone in the class are like siblings. I just dont know how to say. Got to do all stupid things together and i remember that there was once during holiday we cannot finish our IT assignment we stayed back in school till night time. The teacher was there with us. My school has got a lot of horror stories but i never seen ghost there. Lol. Well, so many happen that during the last day everyone was cheering that they are leaving the high school but no one cried for it. Lol. Cause the technology now is so in, and we could just contact each other with phone calls. But i just still miss you guys and wish to wear the pin-a-fore and goes back to the 5T2 2005 agian. I miss you guys so so much. Lol. And the nights we go out and go round the town with a few cars and have drinks together and all sorts.

I just dont know how to describe my feelings and say that i miss you guys so much.