Thursday, October 19, 2006
Stupid Ryan is going to travel again tomorrow and leave me here. ALONE. F him la..
He is now at somewhere disturbing girls. I am not jealous but why he can do it and i cannot le? I also wanna fool around already. Hate him. Ha ha. I also dont know la.
The only thing i know is that i dont trust guys 100 percent and i dont think he trust me 100 percent too. Cause he checked on me. Recently he is the one that keep deleting his message. I also dont know why but i suspect something is up la. Well, actually i dont really expect him to be 100 percent loyal but if i find out him to be unloyal then there will be only one sentence to him. It's bye bye. Ha ha. I am not lady that can be fool. k?
College, the coming semester havent start yet it is starting next week but i am waiting for it like crazy, i dont know why, when there is class i will hate it but when there is no. I miss it. Yes i know i am weird but what to do? I am born with this unstable mind and feeling.
Me and Ryan actually had an big argue yesterday, he said that my heart is so uncertain about things i want. Well, i think that he should balanced out in all the things. Ok la, guys out there is it hard for you to say something sweet to your girl friend like every night before you go to bed, just when you wanna say bye bye to the tiring day? He say cannot. That's all for the answer, i am really sad for that lo. Everytime whenever we argue about that he will be saying that he wanna quit his job if i think that he dont have time for me. It is not that i think that he doesnt have time for me, i just want him to make me feel warmth. I always try to message him something sweet whenever he is tired but what i get? I get nothing. Well, sometimes no matter how tired i am i still message him something sweet, i still sacrifice my time to talk to him on the phone and bla bla bla. All he says is that he cannot do that for me. How i feel? Well, the only thing i wanna say here is that all the guys are the same when they are tackling you and wanting to win your heart they will do the best and make you feel touch. When you are together, ha ha. You are the one who need to win their heart and tolerate them. Sigh. What kind of world is this?
Now, i am feeling so tired, i miss my bed at home but need to go for Bible study tonight. Hi hi. Well, i really am tired but what can i do? This is my life. Right?
with l0v3, The only tame shark
4:48 PM
