Thursday, September 28, 2006
Half day is gone, i didnt do anything tiring but i just feel so tired.
Someone promise to call me this morning but i woke up at 5.30am and wait for his call but he never call till i sms him. But seems like it is still my fault. Sometimes i really dont understand. How should i treat you?
Got to go. Kind off busy today.
Muackss.
Update for the day, just had a huge fight him that particular him over the incident this morning. he still insist that i shall call him. well, whenever thigns happen he does know how to tolerate with me. seems like the love between is twitching and twitching. He still loves me? I still loves him? Honestly, at times i really feel like letting go of this relationship cause he dont trust me enough, he treat me roughly(dont mean that he beat me up or what) but the way he talk and things he do just make me feels that he is too rough. he says that we need to overcome more so that we can have a forever. sometimes he makes me see that there is a forever in us, sometimes, no... He always insists that he understand me enough but i dont think so. we always argue is because of we dont know how to tolerate? I also dont know. I just dont like the way he treat me now. I start to hate him, truthfully.
If you wanna tell him that i start to hate him. Go ahead. I dont mind. I want him to know.
The world is dark and mean. I hate this world. If now you ask me the question i love anyone? I will tell you no. I hate everyone in this world. Everyone is always making me sad and down. Why should i love ? Ha ha. I am going to act cool from this moment onwards. You dont call me, i dont call you. And i aint going to wait for your calls. Ha ha. Fingers cross. Change myself. I dont need to depend on him. I can depend on myself. I am me i myself. No one else in my heart now except GOD.
I really feel so sad. Who can i rely on? No one but only God.....
with l0v3, The only tame shark
1:43 PM
