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Monday, June 26, 2006


Ok. This morning, you message me and greet me good morning then after like half an hour i replied cause i was so tired. Did i ever complain with you? No. And you told me you would reply later. I wait, i wait for such a long time with no reply from you. I sent so many messages cause i care. Then there is no reply from you so i called you but you said something which isnt so nice to me. I was in office and annie could not talk to me nicely too. I now that i am now weak. My heart is throbbing with pain. I need some comfort whom shall i go to? My tears start dripping without my knowledge. My life is tough too. Anyone knows that? Suicide? I could not goes to heaven. I dont want. I want to live better after i die. I hate myself now. I hate myself. I hate myself for not being love, not being care. No one cares how i feel. I want a hug whom shall i goes to now. Sad. So so so sad. God Please Hug Me.

God Please help me. Feel so helpless now.

I am now in a sad situation.

That's the second stupid scar that he cost. The first scar he cost will never heal no matter what he do anymore. That's eternal. I am hurt. How many times i can take it? I told myself that i shall leave after 5 times? Max? Dont know la. Sigh.

Now in the office suffering from sleepiness, he is at home resting. We are now smsing but he still get to lay down and rest. RIght? I know yesterday he made some effort to help his dad carry the aquarium while he was sleeping at home. I am also having sleepless night everynight but i never escape from work. He seems so irresponsible. Dont know la. Maybe sometimes i just cannot see that i also got mistakes and keep looking at people's mistakes only.

I am lost.

Can some one tell me whether i am annoying to them???


with l0v3, The only tame shark
9:04 AM